at the moment life seems so stressful, but I know it isn't, that is just how I am in my nature after being off work all summer & going back to work, I am anxious for every pay day, because bills need to be paid & being behind in ever single bill suck big time, it feels like I am drowning again, I'm anxious & having more intense headaches, I don't have anybody I can turn to help & it sucks cause everybody I know is in the same boat as me, one of these days this won't be a reality in my life, I am bound & determined to change my stars, I want my children to not have to worry when they are adults & I am trying to teach them how to handle money, I was never taught this aspect of life.
I am also in the process of trying to find out what is going on with my health, after having a low grade constant migraine since July 18, 2012 & numerous other things going on I have an appointment with a rheumatologist on October 30, 2014 which happens to be my middle daughter's birthday, (that day is also the 2 year anniversary when my life was turned upside down by my oldest daughter) but I am looking forward to this doctor appointment & dreading it at the same time, I want to find out what is wrong with me, I have a suspicion as to what is going on but not going to dwell on it, I really hope this new doctor can figure out what is going on fairly quickly, so I can start to feel better & not be in pain, I want to enjoy my life again.
That is all for now, I have things to go take care of
